Shop Mobile More Submit  Join Login

I need to update my journal more.

Journal Entry: Thu Feb 4, 2016, 11:58 AM



YES HELLO. How is everyone? :heart:



I am so behind on commenting on stuff in my Inbox. I'm sorry. D:

We have been building at the centre. So I've had lots of long days and kinda...crash when I get home. We're putting in new toilets (not exciting), relocating our entrance and doing general pretty-ing up (a bit more exciting) and building new aviaries (very exciting!).
Also we're getting birds trained and ready for the new shows starting next week. c:
Busy busy busy.
Looking forward to my days off so I can SNOOZE. :heart:

Anyone know of any X-Change Groups?

Journal Entry: Mon Jan 18, 2016, 3:33 AM



I wanted to do some tradey-xchangey thingies.

I'm aware of both fantasy-xchange and ShinXChange (The latter being on hiatus), but I was wondering if anyone knew of any more? ;_;

Thank you if you do! :heart:

Happy 2016!

Journal Entry: Fri Jan 1, 2016, 11:00 AM



Hope everyone had a good Christmas and New Year. c:

Anyone have any resolutions? Goals?

I don't really. Just want this year to be better than the last.
2015 had some good times; I went on 2 fantastic holidays, and I got a beautiful falcon to work with.
But lots of bad things happened. Too much death. Don't want another year like it.

So! This year, at the very least, I have a few art-things I want to do:


• Do more personal art!
• Improve my level of work for commissions, and offer different things.
• Complete my 'Reason for Living' sketchbook.
• Make a memorial scrapbook for my Grandma.
• Do more art trades and do another art raffle.
• Be more active on dA than I was this year, and make more friends!



Merry Christmas!

Journal Entry: Thu Dec 24, 2015, 6:40 AM



Hey guys!

Hope everyone is having a wonderful holiday. :) My Christmas isn't gonna be... fantastic this year. My boyfriend decided to ditch me for the Christmas period, so I'm not feeling great... but, still optimistic for a nice time.
(Hope you guys have a better Christmas than me!)

That aside, best wishes to everyone on here. Have a fabulous time filled with love, joy, and jolly times...and presents, of course. :giggle:



Also! Thank you to all of those who commented on my 'Want a Gift For Christmas' Journal!
Here are some lovely pieces from those who placed a comment, but were not chosen to receive artwork. :heart:



Awake in a Dream by Messenger-Pigeon
Majestic Dragon by Orcanaria Hasira as a Raptor by XXanimeseekerXX Silent Night by Kidakins
Panda and the baer by purpleshadowbooster Sunshine of Hope by SpetsnazKaz Animal Study: Golden Eagle by EagleFlyte Wolf Howling by Animewolfdensetsu 
The Alchemist by suzidragonladyMill Frigate by GravitatingConundrumEvery Time I Close My Eyes by stoiske In Flames by KirikoSoul Brisk Jog by Muffin-Filly 
  Insanity Runs With Me by ThorinFrostclaw Until the dusk is gone. by Kerwana Mini Sandy by inugumi by KayDeeProd CW Painting-Marianela -Speedpaint- by LadyLirriea Dog by the-horse-lover Once Upon A Dream by LividLycan
 Brom CO by Shiinrai Blaez by Ladoncyan Kiara sketch by WinterFrostDragon Foggy autumnnight by kazzuliini Pass the Broken Reflection by MajesticButterWolf Shedus on the beach by HellAboveHeaven

On Rainy Days by Zumori Trade: Zahara by FlamingPhoenixFox That Time of Day .:APP:. by Thunderwolf2113 Malibu's Christmas Badge by captainrex911
Pet Portrait - Jeb the CKCS by Terra-Bites .:Look At My True Power:. by UnravelDragfox When spring returns by GingerFlight
Frozen and Wet by wolfenwinter .:Aurora Dancer:. by Jenny2-point-0
 


What do you want for Christmas?

Journal Entry: Mon Dec 21, 2015, 2:58 AM



I'm curious!
I've seen people putting up these wishlists everywhere, and I'm curious what you guys would like. o:

I'm not really wanting anything in particular this year, to be honest!
Chocolate and/or sweets would be cool. And some nice art would be cool too...my walls need decorating.

Most years it's like, 'Oh gee, I really need a new.....'
But nah. This year, I just want a lovely Christmas time. :heart:


What would you like to see more of from me?

Journal Entry: Thu Dec 10, 2015, 9:26 AM



I am curious and I want to know. ;_;

Please be honest? :heart:

Want a Gift for Christmas?

Journal Entry: Wed Nov 11, 2015, 9:42 AM



Then just comment on this journal! c:

Everyone that comments here before Dec 1st will get a gift - that's a promise.


I want to try and give back to the community of people here that have supported me - whether it be during recent times or through the years.

12 randomly chosen people will get the gift of some artwork - one gift for each day of Christmas. :D (Big Grin)
Everyone else will get their work featured in a journal entry posted on or around Christmas day. c:

Please just leave a comment on this journal if you wish to receive a gift. ^^
You can specify characters and/or a favourite animal if you wish, but please no specific scenarios or such.
If you wish for something specific, I only do this through my commissions!

I will be posting reminders of this journal to give everyone a chance to comment. Reminders will be posted every 3-5 days. Just as a heads up!
Last day to enter!


Art Trades [OPEN?]

Journal Entry: Tue Sep 1, 2015, 8:23 AM



My to-do list is slowly becoming clearer, so I wondered if anyone fancied doing an art trade?

If you are interested, please comment here with a link to whatever you'd like me to draw. :D

I'll do my best to trade with as many people as I can! :heart:
And I will choose people to trade with based on what I would be drawing!

You can pick whoever you want to draw from HERE!

Please note:
Even if I finish my half before you, I will not show you my half of the trade until I see yours has been done.
I've been cheated out of trades before, and it makes me sad. :'c

Quick update to say I will be closing this at the end of the week! Just a quick bump for anyone in a different time zone to let me know if they're interested c:


Am sick, ew.

Journal Entry: Thu Jul 16, 2015, 4:07 AM



Have been feeling pretty under the weather since Monday, so went to the Drs today to find out what on earth is wrong.

I have tonsillitis, woo. :c

On the plus side, time at home, so I can do more art?
If you can call that a positive? Idk.


Also though, I have a new icon!
:iconbladebandit:

Made by Pharaonenfuchs :D

(I also commissioned another. I keep changing between them. >_>)

Do you like birds?

Journal Entry: Tue May 12, 2015, 2:31 AM



I sure hope so. Because I have been drawing a lot of them lately.
(Sorry in advance if you don't like them...)

Anyone have bird characters? Bird pets? Bird...anything? Link them here! I would love to see them! :heart:

And maybe draw them...

I will start!

Here are some photographs of three of the many birds I work with:


Rodney by bladebandit  Rolo by bladebandit  Saffron by bladebandit


Rest In Peace

Journal Entry: Fri Apr 3, 2015, 4:56 AM



Yesterday, my Grandma passed away.

I'm not going to lie, I was trying to mentally prepare myself for it.
But can you really prepare yourself for this?

She'd not been well since around September/October time. Her mind was deteriorating, she wasn't the person I remembered growing up with anymore, but she was still my Grandma. She was having severe back pains, had lost her confidence, her hearing was getting worse (even worse than usual!), and she often had this...almost 'zombie' like look on her face that appeared lost and confused.
Then, around January, she stopped eating properly. She was only eating less than usual at this point, but by February, many types of foods were just making her sick. We begged for her to go to the Drs for at least 2 weeks, and the only reason she eventually did go was due to us making an appointment for her. In January, she weighed around 10 st. At the end of February? Around 8 st.
The Dr was clearly concerned, and he did blood pressure readings, ultrasound scans, blood tests, all the usual. She was then referred to the hospital for further tests such as CT scans.
On Monday, they took her weight at the hospital again before her last scan - she was only just over 7 st. She couldn't afford to stop eating like this.
And her body couldn't take it.

We were due to get all of her test results yesterday, and to find out what the problem was. I was at work, so it was Dad who went to pick her up around lunch time.
And her found her on the kitchen floor.

I was still at work, having quite an enjoyable day if I'm to be honest.
Me and my colleage were out flying our five turkey vultures, when my boss asked us to put them away as quickly as possible.
I knew something was wrong, as both mum and dad were there.
That's when I was told the bad news.

I don't really know how to feel. 'Numb' is the only way we can think of describing it.
Part of me, the selfish part, just wants her back.
But the other part of me is glad. Because she's not suffering, she's no longer in pain, she's not constantly worrying...
...and she never did know what was wrong with her.
I think that's the most important part. She didn't have the worry of knowing exactly what was wrong and what to expect.
She saw me and my family happy. She saw me through Uni, and me getting the job I love.
I know she was proud of me, and supported me until the end.
She died at home; the place she'd loved living in for over 50 years.

But we're human. We're selfish. When we choose to love, we choose to cry.

R.I.P. Grandma

1934-2015




So in short, I'm not going to take time away from the internet. I don't think that will help. I'm going to try and keep myself busy, and keep things as 'normal' as possible.
I think I'm going to make a little book. Like a memories scrapbook. With lots of pictures and cards from her and stuff. That's what I want to do...but maybe not quite yet.
I really need cuddles, but my boyfriend is on holiday...so those will have to wait.
Thanks to those who posted suggestions in my previous journal, appreciate it greatly.

Thank you for your patience with me. I really do appreciate it. Heart

Bunch Of Questions

Journal Entry: Tue Mar 3, 2015, 1:48 PM



Like Crickatoo, I've not done one of these forever.
But I'm sulking from having a bad couple of days, so hey, this will make a nice change. c:

Questions:


1. What makes you happiest at this moment in time?
Usually, it's my job. I'm working with a fantastic group of animals and people - something I've always wanted to do!
But my boss has been Miss Frosty Knickers for the past few days, so I'm not as pumped about it as I usually am.
Right now, my boyfriend is keeping me chilled and happy. Ready to go back to work tomorrow after a nice relaxing day off!

2. Do you have tattoos?
Nope. Nothing against them! They're just not something for me, personally.
Boyfriend has two of them. ^^

3. Favorite dog breed?
Appearance wise? I love the doberman, german shepard, and rottweiler.
But if I could choose a dog for myself, it would be a border collie, hands down. ;_;
Boyfriend wants a springer spaniel though. Maybe we could get both? >>

4. What is your favorite artistic resource (book, tutorial, stock gallery etc)?
Ohmygod. Well I'm always buzzing on dA for inspiration - whether it be helpful reference images, or inspiring artists.
But I have a whole BUNCH of tutorials saved for a time where I may have a chance to try them out. |D
Here's a few:
Thoughts on Wings by Uzlo Various textures tutorial by MinnaSundberg Various elements - tutorial by MinnaSundberg Nebula tutorial. by MacRebisz

5. Favorite beverage?
I have an obsession with fruit juices - my favourite night now being an apple and strawberry squash I just bought from the shops.
But I also love blue raspberry slushies, if those count. c:

6. City, suburbs, or country?
Country, for sure!
I've lived in a small village my whole life. I could live in the suburbs, with the country not being too far, but I don't think I could deal with the hustle of a big city every day!

7. Cake or pie?
Oh gosh. No tougher a question has ever been asked!
I think I have to go with cake, though. I have a soft spot for a lovely home made victoria sponge cake. :heart:

8. What's the last dream you remember?
It's sad, but I don't really remember a lot of my dreams. :c
I know that I dream almost every night, but they seem to disappear almost immediately when I wake up?
The last dream I remember, I can only remember parts of it...and all I really remember are a volcano and dragons.

9. What color is your hair?
Brown...but it's sunbleached on top so I don't even know anymore. |D
Natural highlights though! Woo.

10. Tell a short scary story:
If poaching continues at the current rate, the next generation may never see a live rhino.


I tag:
BecSparrow DraggyGirl Enaxn GoredGuar HybridAlchemist MintyMaguire rlhIllustration ThorinFrostclaw  ValkyrieSorrows
(Close enough to 10 right?)

And my Questions are:
1. What's your favourite hobby?
2. What do you do for your job?
3. What is your dream job?
4. If you could go anywhere in the world, right now, where would you go?
5. Do you have any pets?
6. Favourite bird of prey species?
7. Favourite movie right now?
8. Sweet or sour?
9. Coke or Pepsi?
10. Why are you doing this tag? :P

Rules:
1. You must post these rules.
2. Each person has to share 10 facts about themselves.
3. Answer the 10 questions asked by the person who tagged you and make up 10 questions for the 10 you tag.
4. Choose 10 people and put their icons in your journal.
5. You have to legitimately tag 10 people.
6. No tag-backs.
7. You can not say that you do not do tags.
8. You must make a journal entry!


Taking A Day Off

Journal Entry: Tue Feb 10, 2015, 8:39 AM



Usually, my day off would be spent on art - catching up on things I owe and such.

But a confession - today I'm not doing that.
Had a pretty crap week. I work at the bird of prey centre for the animals, not for the people. x_x
A staff member has been off "sick" with a sore throat. Having to cover her meant extra work we didn't need, and finishing late.
So every night I got home - grumpy face. Grr.
So yesterday; was excited for day off.
BUT boyfriend was really ill last night so we both got about 3 hrs sleep-ish each?
So my day off is going to be spent cuddling and catching up on sleep.

Sorry. I should be doing art.
So I just wanted to apologise...because I'm just taking time to chill...because I need to.
I'll post something tomorrow. Promise!

To all those waiting, thanks for your patience with me :heart:

I'm not sure about everyone else, but my time leading up to Christmas has certainly gone quickly!
Still so much to do. Presents to wrap, food to buy...eek!

I wanted to say thanks to those that have supported me over the past 12 months. If you have commented, +faved, watched, commissioned me, or even just viewed my art this year - thanks so much! :heart: :hug:

But also a thanks to those who have inspired me with their art, too! Here's a couple of features for each month of the past year.
Hopefully someone will find someone new! :D


January:
Young Spectacle Owl by wolfysilver Rapture by shilohs

February:
On Top of the World by pallanoph Coldfire Queen by 404mockingbirds

March:
See You Soon by Enaxn Savanna by Anisis

April:
Burning Bright by Heylenne Painted Tayten by Hymnsie

May:
Winters Glow by Wild-Hearts without tomorrow by CyanLights

June:
Apocalypse. by Zaellrin +Where We Are Where We Are + by ShePaintsWithBlood

July:
Lorem by NightrizerBubo Bubo by spocha

August:
Frosty Heights by ThorinFrostclaw Eclipsed From Within by balaa

September:
Horsies by VixieArts Stray by Grypwolf

October:
Waiting for the stars by AuroraWienhold <da:thumb id="488304470"/>

November:
Autumn Spirit by CunningFox  Eclipse by wolf-minori

December:

Sunlit Flight by DerivedJam Day 14: Beccat by Taluns

Here's hoping everyone has a fantastic Christmas, Holiday Season, and New Year! :aww: :heart:
...how do you do it? Total kudos to you.

My partner is away on a nearly three week holiday to see his family.

Hardly any time at all, right?



Less than 48hrs of being without him and I'm still bawling my eyes out because of how much I miss him.

My brain is just so selfish. I just want him to come back home ASAP so I can cuddle and kiss him and hold him.
It's almost like my head is angry because I can't see him and talk to him every day as I usually would.
So as much as I really want him to enjoy his time away...I'm counting down the days until he comes back home.
I'm angry at myself for feeling this way...I dunno what to do.

I feel super embarassed...I hate posting personal stuff online.
But everyone else I have spoken to has just laughed at me... :(

If anyone has any ideas of what I can do to help myself, it would be much appreciated...thank you. :heart:
Hi. >_> I've kinda neglected this place. I'm sorry. D:
How's everyone doing anyways? What've you all been up to? I miss you guys.

For anyone wondering where I've been...am working with the birds still! Here have some photos:

Birdies by bladebandit

The two that have copyright on weren't taken by mum; credit for those go to Richard Hobbs!
(He didn't want the versions without watermarks being posted!)

But yeah, hopefully I can be around more often. Have actually starting doing art for the first time in like, over 8 months. So...will see.

I just wanted to come here and say I'm not dead, I miss you all, and I'm sorry for totally disappearing for like...a while.

And I hope you all still remember me, lol D:

So angry.

Thu Jan 12, 2012, 12:08 PM


One of our Harris Hawks died.

Because some idiot shot him while we were out flying him.

I am SO fucking wound up right now.
Why? Why would you do that? What sick fuck does that to a majestic bird of prey?



RIP Ramsey. You were the king. You were amazing. I loved you. You taught me as much as I taught you.

You didn't deserve to die in that way. :heart:

Love you, big boy.

Commissions In Progress...
-None!-

• • •  ~ Commissions are Open ~  • • •

•  LiveJournal  •  TumblrTwitter  •


DD?!

Sat Apr 30, 2011, 6:14 AM


Holy cow, woke up this morning to more messages than I normally get and fjdkfj.

A Daily Deviation?!

Kamiki Festival by bladebandit

This just...made my day so much. ;___;

Many thanks to KovoWolf for suggesting and Nyiana-sama for featuring!

And of course, to the wonderful Enaxn...with whom without, this piece would not exist!
Now let's go take over the world, beb. :3

• Journal best viewed in Firefox! •

Ask me a question...

Sat Apr 23, 2011, 4:00 AM


...and I'll answer with a drawing. :D

Actually, it doesn't have to be a question. I'll just answer ever comment with a muro drawing until I get bored.

:iconimhappyplz:

I don't have access to Photoshop for a few hours because a technician is running a healthcheck on my PC. XD So MURO IT IS.

EDIT: No longer have time to reply with drawings. XD Sorry! Thanks to everyone who commented in time. :D

• Journal best viewed in Firefox! •

Tumblr!

Mon Apr 18, 2011, 9:00 AM


So...I caved and got a Tumblr. XD;

> bandarai.tumblr.com/ <

I'll be posting lots of WIP's, sketches, photos and any basically any stuff I find interesting/inspiring!

If you're on there, give me a shout/follow me! :D (And I'll follow you back, if I know you! XD)


Will link it to my Twitter...and possibly my Facebook. I never use Facebook, so I guess that would...actually make it active? |D;

• Journal best viewed in Firefox! •